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THIS PAIR OF OKLAHOMA MILK JUGGS DOES NOT EXIST

Pornpen.ai is the This Anime Does Not Exist of tits, and while it was the future I was promised, it makes me a little bit sad.

Last year, I made a video about crude and debatably successful attempts at creating artificially-generated porn. At the time, GPT2 and DALLE were hardly being talked about in media, though GPT3 was getting some buzz with some racially ambiguous avatars. A few months later, DALLE2 was unleashed and your instagram became saturated with AI generated content. Today, everyone is talking about ChatGPT, and for the most part, understand how to use it. Generative technology like stable diffusion has begun delivering exactly what is asked of it, as evidenced by the endless spring of cum laced faces on Pornpen.


Deep Dream

But the thing is, i LIKED the fumbling half-baked blobs caught between rendered flesh and nightmare. When Google Deep Dream first emerged, the weird lizardiness of it all was delightfully psychedelic but also confusing, a superfluous and logically unnecessary component of identifying and generating pictures. That peak under the hood was kind of a surprise to everyone, including the developers, which is how it came to be released in the first place. And i remember feeling that it was there, in this realm of unintended hallucinatory intricacy, that the potential for AI to cultivate something special resided. A space that is dwindling with each iteration of open ai's refinement and releases.

Dont get me wrong, there are people making RAD shit with AI. But now the things I find most compelling about the newer generation of images are the believability of nonexistent textures people can achieve. which is fine. its cool. sometimes fun. but its lost a lot of the magic. and while im on the subject i might as well give my two cents on the whole AI generated art debate. Ive seen people argue, mostly against, AI generated art in many different forums, dicord servers, reddit threads, and video essays and these arguments are usually pushing one of two points:


Artist Credit: Le Moon

#1 it isnt art.

this is straight up bullshit. and the only people making this argument are usually artists themselves. to say it isnt art because it lacks some kind of requisite effort is on par with some 1800s uproar claiming photography isnt art in comparison to painting. I think, if you are truly fulfilled by your own art you wont give a shit about how other people make the images that they find meaning in. And a lot of AI art accounts are just that. Oftentimes these are images that couldnt have been derived any other way, or not without a gargantuan amount of hours/knowledge to digitally render some effects. You can see the different interations and passes as they fine tune and train their specific style to get the results they want, and moreover, you can see the enthusiasm to share what once wasnt there and now is. Generative images have a way of yielding unintended details that surprise both the artist and the audience, and i like it.


Artist Credit: Douggy

#2 its unethical and stealing

this has to do with the data sets the art is trained on, that they were taken from the intellectual property of other artists or other copyright holders without permisssion. I get this, and i have a harder time parsing it to know where I stand exactly. Working through it I would argue inspiration is the same thing, processing everything you have ever seen and it coming out in a certain way based on the parameters that you are most attracted to.

Putting that aside, there is another point to be made that has to do with companies like Lensa profiting off of content produced from data sets that were harvested from artists that did not give permission to use their art for such purposes, and that's fucking lame. people should be compensated. For me, when its a company turning a profit off the backs of others hard work, i take offense. When its an artist being shit on for having it too easy i dont.


Kim Jung Gi

nested within this second point is the idea that someone can make art in the style of someone else and pass it off as their own (which i havent seen ANYONE do, the vast majority of ai artists are producing their own style sets). However, in regards to this point, I believe I saw a post from the estate of the recently passed kim jung gi, claiming his artwork was being used without his permission to generate images in his specific style, a style that was celebrated just as much for his masterful and effortless execution as it was the final product, and this is the one that gets me. i havent really negotiated what it think about it, or what my opinion is there, or what it should be (since i often have opinions that i know should be better or different).

One idea i have seen to address this is from the book Who Owns the Future by Jared Larnier. I think it was written back in 2017 before all this AI art business came about, but talk of automation putting people out of work was very much a concern. In the book, Larnier proposes a system where everyone's digitized creations would have a marker embedded, be it a jpg or an mp3 that would indicate the original author, and then anyone who subsequently used or remixed their content would have to send the original author a microtransaction. and this was meant not so much for credit where credit was due, but as a way for people to continue to generate value and income in the face of mass unemployment. If you think about this in the context of memes, the first person to make a meme format that catches on would be able to make a tidy sum off of it. Like the first person to make the meme with drake pointing yes and no thank you might pay a few cents for using those frames to the director of the music video, and then everyone who used that meme format might pay a fraction of a penny to the guy who made the meme and even as it evolves theres still little bits of money zip-zanging around. I guess when theinternet was first created, links and images were supposed to work this way, where the original source would have been embedded in every image. i think its really cool and if implemented could have so many interesting uses beyond what we're talking about today.


Artist Credit: Douggy

in conclusion if someone else making art with ease makes you mad, you're being a baby. other arguments against generative art need further consideration. and lastly, to my initial point, the window of what made AI art uncomfortable and unpredictable feels like it is closing. some of it is still there in deformed faces and unintelligible text but overall, its becoming ever more precise and giving us exactly what we ask for, and in a way thats kind of sad. if anyone out there developing AI tools, i would love to talk about if there is a way to nurture that chaotic element and pull out more of that weirdness we didnt know was lurking in the digital cytoplasm. thats the stuff that really intersests me and im glad i was around to see it, and i hope it doesnt go away.


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So honored (and quite frankly, shocked) to have my video project The Sex Robot Show featured in the British Film Institute's Best Video Essays of 2022. It's way down towards the bottom, and just one project amongst many, but it is in good company and I actually was already familiar with the BFI's annual list, having scoured through previous years nominees for content to watch, way before I ever made a youtube channel. So seeing my name on it is a total mindblower.

LINK DUMP #O11 - a 1970s Japanese Horror Technicolor classic, I too like it raw, the rest of your life, and a tool for identifying artificially generated content.

Jan. 12, '023

Twenty-TwentyThree &Me

Oh wow, 2O23. Its going great right? It is, isn't it? Well for me it is. You know, I used to think people that didnt experience depression lacked emotional complexity. That their inner world and aspirations were so damn boring that they didnt have the material to construct the traps that snap shut and drag down the best and brightest. I am SO GRATEFUL to now know how fucking stupid that was. Look, I know a lot of people on neocities are young, so let me help some of you out: "Only interesting people are sad" is some dumb edgelord shit and on top of that hella boring people are sad too, and usually they can't shut up about it.

Anyway, (what was that?) it's twenny twenny three and ive already finished two books, both in the past 48 hours. One took a few weeks to get to the end, and the other took the better part of last night. The first one, which I can't recommend enough, was recommended to me by way of this video (below) on bridging the gap between alien cultures. Rather than giving us aliens, the author uses animals that are already on this planet - spiders. Children of Time is so good, and despite it's size, really easy to read. It manages to span thousands of years without becoming a tedious history like Dune (sorry, Dune). The chapters flip between the development of the spiders and what's left of the human race after AI, climate change and nuclear winter combine to triple suplex the planet. If you like science fiction shit at all, then this book is for you. Its full of the kind of mind benders that make scifi so special, the newly bridged concepts that linger far after you watch a film, like that scene in interstellar where an hour on the high gravity planet turned into 16 years for the crew member they left behind, or how time curls back on itself in Arrival; this book gives a new way to think about perception and communication that is quite lovely, and a genuine feat considering it's the author's first scifi novel.

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Fever Dream I could recommend to maybe two, or three people. Recommending a book at all these days is crazy, but if youre someone who doesnt really feel like reading most of the time, then, while it is a super fast read, it might just leave you with a kind of headache. It's good, it's weird, but it's really like an episode of the Alfred Hitchcock show in that its more rewarding if youre in the right mood to take it in. The story is fucked up and translated from Spanish. One of the glowing reviews on the cover said it feels like its own genre, and I agree. Actually forget what i said about Alfred Hitchcock Presents, this book is really Twin Peaks, an uncomfortable and prolonged mystery that doesn't give you anything remotely familiar to solve it with. and while i like it (and twin peaks) i completely get why someone wouldnt.

Ok. that's all for now. I was really struggling to find books that could hold my attention last year, so I am glad to have found these two so soon. I hope everyone is doing their best and giving in to the spirit of a new year starting and not listening to chickpea souffle takes like "don't feel pressured to start something new just because its the new year, be kind to yourself". fuck that, you should do something you can be proud of as soon as possible. you will like it when things feel good, i promise.

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IF I HAD A MAGAZINE

Pretty sweet selection of illustrators pumped into the latest issue of The Baffler, a magazine I'll pick up every now and then. The last issue I got featured a fun article on republican art and an analysis of the Bachelor. The illustrations above pair with an investigation of evangelical foster mom instagram influencers and anti-abortion campaign tactics (the issue's theme is Family). Ive tried reading both of the corresponding articles but... it seems in the years since I last flipped through The Baffler, things have taken a sharper turn towards making monsters out of conservatives, in a way that i find distasteful. For example in the one about the foster parent bloggers, one of them has a parent group that she self-describes as a "a group of vets sharing war stories" which the author immediately chastises as "a metaphor that equates temporarily caring for children who have been removed from their families -a trauma in itself- with being enlisted in bloody armed conflict." caaaaalm the fuck down. them posting the kids, and trying to recruit them into their religion is ick enough. we really dont need this i-live -on-twitter way of 'so what youre really saying'-ing everything.

sorry, im here to highlight the illustrations, but im not sure if i necessarily endorse the issue they live in yet. and theres a lot more gems therein. it had me thinking though of how when the illustration an article comes with is good enough, i will actually read an article that i would have been completely disinterested in otherwise.

Heres another kick ass illustration from the same issue of Dazed I mentioned awhile back (which i 1000% endorse). I MEAN how can you not want to read whatever this toast portrait comes with??? my eyes get wider when i say its soo good. This all had me thinking. if I had my own magazine, which illustrators i would want to jizz-jazz it up jizz jazz Below are the first ones that came to me, feel free to click through their links and see if you agree.

Dani Motora

Starting with an artist right here on neocities, Dani Motora has a wobbledy muscular style that you can watch evolve, along with her talent, across time via her online archives. Her illustrations are stark and memorable, and its rare to catch an artist that has a distinct style, but still clearly developing into their final form.

Runnerup:

fakehauswives
nasty airbrush style, with sexy clowns

Danny Ische Knoblauch
aka okniceok

Its so hard to pick just one illustration, since their overall body of work works together to support each piece on its own. Look at me saying body of work and piece. Ha! This one may not be the best exemplar but i just love how they went after a meticulous rendering of that deep fried cronch. Anyway I dont know how yall see it, but all the symmetry, the translating of different textures from collage into graphite, the choices that speak to their overall taste, make okniceok an artist's artist in that if you know how to draw you appreciate what a pain in the butt this would be to execute, while still looking extremely simple. Even if this is tracing I dont care.

Runnerup:

withpencilinhand
another graphite godsend, but way more pornographic and rough.

Jess MacCormack

An experimental AI artist that doesnt suck? Sign me up. This was another tough one to settle on a solitary pic, a lot of body parts emerging from soup and bad simpsons to wade through, but it's really what generative art ought to be, working with the AI instead of leaning on it, to ferret out the randomness that an intentional hand might ruin or waste too much time on.

Runnerup:

sentientmuppetfactory
another generative ai artist, making uncomfortable abominations that sit nicely within a faux 35mm cinematic world

jules garcia

my superskilled pick for portraitist, just hella good at drawing. This drawing is called "Complicated TV Dads"

Runnerup:

annabell ayala-rodriguez
another artist's artist i'd suppose, this girl's luxuriously rich watercolor portraits sing like oils.

Jiayi Li

this is who i would go to if i wanted a killer accessories editorial, everrything they do is glistening, erotic and usually, fruit-related.

(and i know im right on this one, because they already have done brill work with loewe fragrances, which i didnt realize until revisiting their IG for this list)

Runnerup:

good.morning.my.dear.friend
Ok, hear me out.. this is bonkers Chinese mememaker was recommended to me due to holdover datapoint from living in taiwan for a few years and I have no idea what any of their memes are trying to convey, but throwing accessories into this weird oriental anti-style would be kinda sick.

Paolo Puck
aka fluff.faun

pastel and sculptural, with two p's or four f's in their name, depending on who you ask. physical sculpture serving as illustration is always a good move. plus, they make a lot of creepy dogs.

Runnerup:

daisy collingridge
these two artists live together in my mind, for obvious reasons, and while she might be the better of the two, the first is just a bit more illustrative, and if we are being accurate in this fantasy, i dont think she would take my calls.

CORNY AFTERWORD:

As you might have inferred, the majority of these artists were revealed to me on instagram. I think we are told too often these days that social media will either rot your mind, make you feel bad about your body, or pulverize your psyche. people drop off their accounts and return with announcements about mental health housekeeping. Ive never suffered from this so I can't relate, but I just want to say, enjoy other people's talents. If you come across someone seven years younger than you with ten times the output, hype them up and tell them how magical they are! if you see art or talent and it makes you feel bad about yourself, i think you might be using art wrong. You must know that people aren't sharing their creations online to make other people feel bad about themselves. idk. I know what im saying probably wont help, but it might make sense. If youre reading this, and youre a maker of things, and feel like youre surrounded by other people doing more and better, try to reframe it as having tremendous access to inspiration that are all tracks being laid for your train to roll on. alright, that's the best i can come up with, and its not that good of a metaphor, but fuck it, i tried. Happy Holidays.

TWO SHORT INDIE COMICS I THINK ABOUT ALL THE TIME

!) Abstraction by Shintaro Kago is a bit of a dream comic for me, pushing the boundaries of form is enough for me to love it on its own, but that the content is grotesque and superbly drawn just makes it that much better. theres not a lot i dont like from kago, with the only exception of his fondness for cats. This story doesn't feel like a story so much as indecipherable notes written in the dark after waking up from a dream.

!) Love's Savage Fury by Mark Newgarden is an extremely short, lingering story found in Newgarden's fantastic collection of work, We All Die Alone. After thinking about this comic for years, and finally sourcing it online I was a bit dismayed to discover that it really sings in the printed form, where your eye is forced to move through each panel; there's something about the screen that shoves each entire page in all at once as a single image, breaking the effect of "reading". However, since most people aren't likely to come across this book irl (please, buy it if you can!), it still felt worthwhile to archive it online. It's hard to imagine something so sentimental coming from the artist that made The Garbage Pail Kids

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LINK.DUMP #010 - Radical Graphical Design Rabbithole, Jejune Institute vs MeowWolf, & dying virtual platforms preserved by cyber socialists

Oct 17, 2O22

hello babushkas...

spent the past few weeks working myself to the bone {thugs n harmony} on a breathlessly boring video editing project for work. i say breathless because i had to edit out every breath, er, erm, uh and stutter out of a 3 day software conference. i would much rather have been working on my own video projects. i think i've shelved the sex robot show for now, its just tough working on something that you know nobody will ever see, which has been the case since getting shit-canned by youtube. Im not too bitter though, since it did net me a job. The job that led to the project i just complained about (cry laughing emoji). Anyway, getting banned doesn't prohibit me from creating a new channel and Ive been toying around with the idea of making some fun stuff, as there's no use in reposting the sex robot show again, if it's all going to get taken down again. btw, for anyone who's interested in the sex robot videos they are currently hosted on odysee and archive.org, with links to all episodes at thesexrobotshow.com

but fret not young friend, my sex robot work continues. I've been working with the International Congress on Love and Sex with Robots, an annual academic conference coming up in November. Virtually all academic writing on the subject either comes from, or heavily cites works published by this conference. The way academic conferences work is once they are announced there's a call for abstracts and researchers will submit their papers, and the conference committee selects which ones they want to publish, like an academic journal*. The authors of selected papers will present their work alongside keynote speakers and panel discussions. The panel I organized is gonna be hella cool, which i'll talk about later.

The main reason i felt like writing anything here today is because ive been feeling swamped and its always those times where im overran with project ideas and other things id rather be doing. things to make, video topics, weird online shit, paintings. and then when i have free time i either watch youtube, or at best, start assembling all the materials I might need for doing a thing. I had it in my mind at the beginning of the year to learn oil paint, so i racked everything i could possibly need and bought an easel. I thought of a small sculpture series so i began storing away sculpey. i started watching more and more videos about VRChat so i found an oculus on letgo. ive yet to push around any paint, open the sculpey package or set up my headset. good thing i dont have time to kick myself in the ass and dwell.

last night i got the idea to make some kind of project journal to keep on this site, so i could have some visual public ? form of accountability (as if the ever-growing mountain of materials choking up free space in my room isn't a reminder). not that i think its the kind of accountability where people are actually gonna see it and hold me to anything since a) i doubt i have return visitors to this site and b) people dont hold each other accountable to their aspirations anyway. but it will at least be something out there, in the world and im hoping that having a list of boxes to tick might be somewhat satisfying.

im also going to make a page for all the ideas that i can never carry out, since i simply dont have the resources/experience. Ideas for apps, machines, even policy initiatives. these are the ones i will think out to the extreme, and it would be kind of a shame for them to live out their days and die inside my wet brain. its kind of weird when you think about that, how many wonderful things have never existed, never spoken of, trapped inside so many people all the planet. i think thats why we like originality no matter the quality, its kind of fulfilling for the viewer that they got a chance to see it. i think im talking about weird art i see on instagram now, even though its not where this started. i love weird. i loathe artists that turn themselves into one trick ponies no matter the execution or talent. i'll see a cool illustration, like a bunch of animals in the shape of a skull and go to their page and its all different crap in the shape of a skull. having a style is one thing but being boring is a sin. thats a da vinci quote, not mine.

anyway im going to try to update this site here and there and write more. ttyl

*I've thrown their published work from past years in the resource section of the sex robot show website for anyone who's curious.

LINK.DUMP #009 - Obscure animation, the visual revolution of tabletop rpgs and a smattering of hentai keycaps. my neck is bearded. resistance is futile.